We are getting ready to head in for our 3rd IUI (Intrauternine Insemination)... ya think it would have worked the first two times, but hey what can you do!? I have always heard the famous saying "third times a charm", so we will see if this statement is really true or not. Three is most definitely a lucky number for us, after all our anniversary is on March 3rd, John got home from his mission on July 3rd, We have almost been married three years, I won a wedding at La Caille by putting three entry forms in the drawing...you see where I am going with this. Three is a good number for us and we are hoping that it will be the lucky number we need and deserve this time :)
The other day I had about had it with life...as bad as that sounds. I was feeling pretty down in the dumps, which according to all my posts pretty much hasn't been out of the norm lately. So, I have decided it is most definitely time for a change. Each month I am not pregnant I am aloud one day to be sad about it...I am sure you can figure out what that one day of the month that would be, and then it's time to move on and figure out the next step. Pretty much this situation sucks and I can either curl up in a ball, cry, and not want to even get out of bed, or figure out what our next step will be and do something about it.
Wish us luck in our next adventure with infertility...oh what a lovely word...NOT!
Well...school is done for the semester and I am already feeling the itch that I need to do something. School keeps me so busy that when it is over I almost get bored...I didn't EVER think I would hear myself say that. I will also be done with work on the 19th for Christmas Break (or Winter Break if you are a Christmas hater) and won't be going back until January 3rd! What in the world am I going to do with all my free time you might ask?! Well, John and I have decided we are going to redo our bedroom. I have many idea floating through this head of mine, so here is what we are thinking....
I am loving grey and yellow...if you can't tell from my blog ha ha. So this is what we are going for. It won't be exactly like this, but similar. I am thinking instead of grey bedding I am going to go with something white and fluffy like this...
Who knows...I guess I'll have two long weeks to figure it out :) Until then...stay posted for pictures!!!
Someday I hope to look back on the trial I have been stuck in the past year and say, "Wow that was really hard, but I made it through". I found this amazing blog today that was recommended by John's cousin...and I hope one day I can be as strong as this girl. The blog iswww.jaromandkristin.blogspot.com. She nailed every single emotion I have felt and every thought that has gone through my mind...She doesn't even know me, but her blog did so much for me today. Even though everyone's experiences are different, it's nice to know that there are those people in this world that can understand the pain and suffering I have gone through and just how badly I want to be a mother. As hard as it is to admit I am still not healed from my miscarriage, but I am hoping one day when I get to hold that little baby in my arms, that a lot of the pain I have felt will be healed and taken away.
Well, the Clomid and IUI didn't work this time...I had high expectations and for sure thought everything would work great. So I guess it is back to step one again for us. :( This is getting very exhausting and I am tired of all the emotions that follow. Life sometimes just doesn't make sense!
So, I survived my first round of Clomid and it wasn't as bad as everyone made it seem...so I was happy about that. I had some minor side effects from it, actually really only one that I noticed and that was hot flashes...so glad I have at least 30 years until I have to deal with those every day and every night :) After I was done with the Clomid, Dr. Spencer had me taking estrogen and pretty much that made me emotional about everything! And to our surprise...I didn't even finish it before ovulating and going in for an IUI (sorry for all the confusing terms, I am becoming an expert at all this stuff) Anywho...after trying Clomid, estrogen, and getting an IUI we are hoping to find out some GOOD NEWS in two weeks and if no good news comes, then I guess my next post might be a "venting" post :) So while I have to go through the 2WW (two week wait) I am going to first work on being....
**PATIENT (I don't think this word is even in my vocabulary)
Second, I am going to work on being....
**OPTIMISTIC (optimistic that this will work, and optimistic that if it doesn't, it's not the end of the world. )
My sweet husband is being so positive and it's rubbing off on me just a little bit :) we want this to work so bad, and hope maybe, just maybe this could be the month.
We sure had a fun holiday weekend! It started out with going to dinner at Cafe Rio and Bowling with Jeremy and Chelsea...we love these guys and even though we only live 5 seconds away from each other, we hardly ever hang out...So we are trying to be better at that.
We had so much fun at Boondocks. We went bowling and then the "boys" played a bunch of games. We won tickets, but gave them away to a boy that looked like he would enjoy them a lot more than us.
After our fun night with Jeremy and Chelsea, We headed home to get some sleep because at 5:45am we would be waking up to head to SWISS DAYS!!! I know this is crazy to admit, but this would be my first year going to Swiss Days and lets just say...it most certainly won't be the last. I have already began making plans for next year :)
We went to Swiss Days with the Huston clan and shopped our little hearts out...LITERALLY! I have never seen so many booths in my life. I was able to walk away with Jewelry and more jewelry, flower hair clips and pins, some VERY cute wrapping paper for Christmas and these two adorable shirts...
I have a crazy obsession with owls and birds lately...
They are for those babies I will have one day...hopefully soon. Yeah...I am one of those people that has literally a dresser full of random things like this. My mom has even bought stuff here and there that is on clearance or if it's really cute. So...lets hope I have a girl first because I have a lot of girl stuff :) and if not that will be fine too! I'll take what I can get ha ha
After shopping our little hearts out, we shopped even more at the outlets and then headed home. I was so tired by the end of the day that I called it an early night and went to sleep.
On Sunday we went to church and then went out to visit my mom and dad. The weather was perfect, so we spent most of the time outside. Plus that is where Charlie likes to be. John did some service by helping my dad dig two holes for the trees he had bought a couple days before. What a good husband he is :) I love my parents and I don't get to see them near as much as I would like. But soon we will get to spend a whole week together on vacation.
Monday consisted of sleeping, doing a little more shopping (including the purchase of a Fall wreath for the front door, which I will probably hang up this next week), and homework.
All-in-all it was a great weekend...now back to work and school :)
So, I just had a couple of things on my mind and thought I would share...
First, I LOVE my job. Everyday I look forward to going to work and that's a really good thing. As funny as it may sound I feel excepted and extremely loved by all the children. It always makes my day when I have girls running up to me, giving me hugs, telling me nice things...I absolutely LOVE it!
Second, School is stressful. I didn't do so hot on my first test of the semester yesterday...but hey! what can you do?! Life goes on :)
Third, I am so proud of my husband. He is doing so well at his job and really enjoying the new position he is in. I am also so proud of his determination to get done with school. He is a hard worker and sometimes I don't know how he does everything he does, Pretty much he is amazing! He also just got called as Young Men's First counselor
Fourth, I am so grateful for doctors. We met with Dr. Spencer on Monday and John and I feel like we got a lot of answers to our many questions...
Fifth, even thought life seems unfair sometimes...there are others who have much worst trials in their life. Knowing this makes me appreciate all I have been given.
Sixth, I know I have said it a million times, but I am so excited for Fall Time. This weekend we are going to Swiss Days...I want to look for a beautiful Fall Wreath to go on my door.
Seventh, I wonder when I get pregnant again if I'll be as sick as the first time...everyone says every pregnancy is different, I still think I'll be extremely sick with all my pregnancies :)
Eighth, General Conference is in a month! I LOVE General Conference.
Ninth, our cruise vacation is so soon... I hope the hurricanes stay away. I am excited for a little break!!
Tenth, I have so much homework, but I just need a break for one night :)
John always seems to give me a hard time about being so open with anything and everything about myself, but that's just me :) This is my blog and it's where I write about our life, our experiences, trials, and happy moments...I don't think a lot of people read my blog anyways. But what I came to write about today...after four LONG months of me being inpatient, shedding a lot of tears, and feeling completely down and out of it...I called Dr. Spencer (my OB) to get an appointment to figure things out with ya know...the getting pregnant thing. John and I get to meet with him in just a couple of days and man, am I excited!
These last couple of months have been the toughest part of my life that's for sure. Unfortunately I am not one of those people that can just get pregnant by thinking about it. It breaks my heart that I have to involve doctors in something that other couples get handed to them. I am hoping by visiting Dr. Spencer this next week, that we will get some options as to what is our next step. Every day I dream about being a mom and I try to have faith every day that we will get that chance soon. I get nervous about having another loss, but I can't really think about that right now. It's been really hard to stay positive and every time I find out someone new is pregnant, I wonder when it will be our turn.
I am grateful for being able to learn a lot of life lessons and a lot about myself through this process. It has made me a stronger person and appreciate a lot of things I have been given.
So I kind of have two Back to School's his year...
First off, Fall Semester began today for John and I...I guess we better hold on tight and enjoy the ride. John being the amazing person he is, is taking 18 credit hours AGAIN! And myself...15 :) We are going to be busy busy busy, but we just want to get done with school.
Second, I love my new job! Like I said before, I am working at a Charter school now. The last two weeks I have been training, learning the ins and outs, and preparing myself for the first day of school. Last night I couldn't sleep...I was so nervous for the first day, it was like being a kid again. And well...the first day was AWESOME and I survived! I made a lot of fun, cute little friends who call me " Mrs. H" and I absolutely love it! Even though I won't be able to memorize all 375 of their names...they are so much fun and most definitely keep my entertained.
Looks like Back to School is starting off on a good foot.
Well, it's about that time to wrap up the summer. We did a lot of fun things these past couple of months including a vacation to Las Vegas and St. George, summer concerts at Sandy Amphitheater, Mama Mia at Capitol Theater, birthdays, BBQ's, Fireworks, Camping, Cowabunga Bay, temple visits and much much more. We most certainly won't forget our not so fun event this summer (the pit bull attack) But all-in-all it was a great summer!
Here is a recap of the events I haven't blogged about yet...
Charlie did so good at his last vet appointment. He didn't even cry when they took his staples and stitches out.
Nashville Tribute Concert at Sandy Amphitheater....We got hit by a summer storm! Can you tell?! Even though the rain was coming down like we just walked into a shower, it was so much fun! FAVORITE MOMENT that's for sure. I loved looking over at John and laughing so hard because we were so wet.
Kobe playing in his all-star Baseball game...this was a HOT day and I sure was glad I wasn't one playing out on the field!!
Horton Family...Minus Mason. He also had a game this day for High school. WHAT?! My nephew just went into 9th grade! I can't believe it!!
Our Little all-Star
(More Pictures to come...I am still trying to upload them)
We have been married two years! WOW time has flown by...I am very much in love with my husband and can't wait to see what the future holds for us. We are hoping this year to add one more to the Huston Fam... I decided to make this blog, so that I can print out blog books and remember the memories we will make. Enjoy!