Monday, December 19, 2011

Some thoughts...

Here are some great pins from Pinterest and how I am feeling today...enjoy!

P.S.- School got out today for Christmas Break which means I am officially off work for two weeks...I am going to have a lot of time on my hands :)

Monday, December 12, 2011

Third times a charm???

We are getting ready to head in for our 3rd IUI (Intrauternine Insemination)... ya think it would have worked the first two times, but hey what can you do!? I have always heard the famous saying "third times a charm", so we will see if this statement is really true or not. Three is most definitely a lucky number for us, after all our anniversary is on March 3rd, John got home from his mission on July 3rd, We have almost been married three years, I won a wedding at La Caille by putting three entry forms in the see where I am going with this. Three is a good number for us and we are hoping that it will be the lucky number we need and deserve this time :)

The other day I had about had it with bad as that sounds. I was feeling pretty down in the dumps, which according to all my posts pretty much hasn't been out of the norm lately. So, I have decided it is most definitely time for a change. Each month I am not pregnant I am aloud one day to be sad about it...I am sure you can figure out what that one day of the month that would be, and then it's time to move on and figure out the next step. Pretty much this situation sucks and I can either curl up in a ball, cry, and not want to even get out of bed, or figure out what our next step will be and do something about it.

Wish us luck in our next adventure with infertility...oh what a lovely word...NOT!

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Christmas Break is done for the semester and I am already feeling the itch that I need to do something. School keeps me so busy that when it is over I almost get bored...I didn't EVER think I would hear myself say that. I will also be done with work on the 19th for Christmas Break (or Winter Break if you are a Christmas hater) and won't be going back until January 3rd! What in the world am I going to do with all my free time you might ask?! Well, John and I have decided we are going to redo our bedroom. I have many idea floating through this head of mine, so here is what we are thinking....

I am loving grey and yellow...if you can't tell from my blog ha ha. So this is what we are going for. It won't be exactly like this, but similar. I am thinking instead of grey bedding I am going to go with something white and fluffy like this...

Who knows...I guess I'll have two long weeks to figure it out :) Until then...stay posted for pictures!!!

Tuesday, December 6, 2011


Someday I hope to look back on the trial I have been stuck in the past year and say, "Wow that was really hard, but I made it through". I found this amazing blog today that was recommended by John's cousin...and I hope one day I can be as strong as this girl. The blog is She nailed every single emotion I have felt and every thought that has gone through my mind...She doesn't even know me, but her blog did so much for me today. Even though everyone's experiences are different, it's nice to know that there are those people in this world that can understand the pain and suffering I have gone through and just how badly I want to be a mother. As hard as it is to admit I am still not healed from my miscarriage, but I am hoping one day when I get to hold that little baby in my arms, that a lot of the pain I have felt will be healed and taken away.